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Pirates... yup makes me wanna be one more than ever the movie was probably one of my favorites I loved it!
back to sleep

I have recenctly purchased a snake! IT"S SOOOOOO CUTE! it makes me happy! It's name is odd. but that's okay because it's cool and snake like

It's name is...

CHOCOLATE INTENT!

or CIN for short. yup cool beans!

I'm confused
Scared
Sad
and in love

Why is is so hard?

So i'm trying to sell my costume on EBAY for the first time ever! I have have never used ebay other than for my own buying needs! Wish me luck. And if you have any tips on where I can spam people and get them to at least look at my stuff that would be awsome.

SPAM!

Oh I have a need to get Drunk. so lol any parties?
Taxes should come back soon...Convention possiblility! Really really wanna go to a Con! Anything besides NDK this year would be totally awsome I wanna escape colorado for a bit.
New job tho... makes me wonder about time off...

SO I have a few things lying around my closet One of which is the beautiful orginal tifa wig I have never worn. I made the costume for NDK 2005 and couldnt part with it. The problem is I look bad as tifa. *sigh* So i got to thinking and I have come up with a general plan for costume Idea's this year.
My Tifa wig will be transformed into a fairy wig.
I have ALWAYS wanted to cosplay a fairy. So why not
Oh and if any one has some pointers for wings this will be much apperciated. This will be a new adventure for me.
I just purchased a long pink wig for simca from Air gear
and my new ashe wig thus my old ash wig will go to Tom to create yet another cloud wig due to the fact that he sold his other one. SO the new wig is good for two things!

I was wondering if anyone knows someone who wishes to purchase
1. my pink chii costume
2. my Namine Dress
3. My Orignal Tifa

If anyone is intrested in theese things let me know! -k-?

Basically I had a critique today in class and ,boy did I feel pathetic after it all. Only becasue I really couldn't tell you what I was thinking when I made my poster the wrong size! So i left class feeling kinda bummed and thinking about what I could do to better the poster since I had to remake the entrie thing anyway in time to print for next week. I was anxious to work on it. Needless to say when I got off of work I came home straight to the old laptop and spent 4 and a half hours working on my poster and I am quite please. I feel very much accomplished! So much so I'm going to email my teacher right now before I go to bed! YAY! it feels nice to feel like this!

Oh! Costume update.... Belldandy costume is much harder to make than I had orginaly planned. I wish I had a dress form.

I make plans I break them. Yeah I suck. I suck and i'm broke I cant even do the things I most enjoy...a.k.a cosplay, hanging out, Going to a simple dinner or lunch. *must think positive* Things will get better, Things will get better* All I have to do is work harder... yeah work more! No conventions for me this year and thus no new costumes either so I will be going to school this summer and maybe i'll focus on loseing alittle weight.
Which is good but also a shame.

I miss my friends.

Last night I worked on my Illustrator project for about an hour and I went to save... my computer froze and now my file is damaged! It will not load at all for me! all progress is lost! The teacher will be pissed off. I did not make a back up file... I almost got in a car accident yesterday! YAY for me. I really really want this streek of disgusting luck to end. It just puts me in a bad mood and then I get mopey and nobody wants that. UH! *breathe* I want spring break to come faster.

My Time is best spent at school and at work. I am finding it hard to get motivated... again. I think I need a total lazy, sit on the couch day to get me up and running again... sounds nice.... GOOD NEWS! not! Online classes suck and when it said my midterm website was uplaoded it was not!...I am pissed... I finished and started on the project early! Will I get to turn it in late... I dont know but my day was sour when I heard this. *breathe* Teri was talking about her bass and made me miss my fling of wanting to learn bass. I wanna Learn again! ARHH selling that thing was a bad idea now. I wanna start taking pictures at work. Sounds like lots of fun. A little scary but most new jobs are to me. Overall tho. I think it will be fun.

So my mother does need to get surgery. Neural surgery... scary I'm sure she will be fine I just wish that she didnt have to go threw this. I know if she didn't she would be in alot more pain. I am finally over with Macy's I have one more day left there. I got a new job that pays me more with more hours so hopefully I can afford the things I need and the things I want. Tomorrow night I get to see Cobra with Tracy and the Fabulous Liz. I'm excited! Also Tom moves into his apartment this weekend! I'm so proud of him! I lost 5 pounds just 5 more to go....*sigh*. SO i'm happy and i'm upset. I have a couple things going for me, I'm alittle stressed about school and my mother is in pain. I would say overall tho I'm doing fine. Better good than bad. I would feel fantastic if only I could purchase some fabric or even a wig. My sewing skills crave attention. I love Death note the anime... I havent seen the movie yet! it makes me think and anticipate I want more!
Love always and forever
Tonya Lou

So my mother does need to get surgery. Nural surgery... scary I'm sure she will be fine I just wish that she didnt have to go threw this. I know if she didn't she would be in alot more pain. I am finally over with Macy's I have one more day left there. I got a new job that pays me more with more hours so hopefully I can afford the things I need and the things I want. Tomrrow night I get to see Cobra with Tracy and the Fabulos Liz. I'm excited! Also Tom move's into his apartment this weekend! I'm so proud of him! I lost 5 pounds just 5 more to go....*sigh*. SO i'm happy and i'm upset. I have a couple things going for me, I'm alittle stressed about school and my mother is in pain. I would say overall tho I'm doing fine. Better good than bad. I would feel fantastic if only I could purchase some fabric or even a wig. My sewing skills crave attention. I love Death note the anime... I havent seen the movie yet! it makes me think and anticpate I want more!
Love always and forever
Tonya Lou

My mother is in pain she went to the hospital i'm worried! Not to mention the fact that my grandnmother is in pain from pulling some muscles and both are in physical therapy! I hope they are going to be okay. I need to stay home and help more.

I dont like you and you dont like me. GET OVER IT! I do not want to play tug a war with friendship. It sucks that things are this way but they are. So please stop trying to turn my friends against me becuase it won't work. and how do you get demoted from being a "sister" to just a friend. I don't get it! why do you make me so mad!
Tonya Lou

Love!
good day.

Busy busy busy trying get use to haveing a full time school schedual, looking for a new job, trying to get in shape!...what? get in shape? Yes! I am actually for once in my lazy life getting off of my ass and going to the gym. I know i'm not Fat or anything of that nature I just think this will give me more self confidence and bring me a boost of self esteem! I'm just happy that I do not have to do it alone and I have my friend Alex helping me.

I admit tho have been kind of a loser lately. I havent had very much time to spend with my other friends. I apologize it's not that I dont want too. I love ya! so PLEASE! dont be angry with me!

Today was Tom's nieces birthday and man thoose girls were soo lucky! they got a room make over and a barbie cake! There was an actual barbie with the cake part as the dress!! O_O It was nice.

updates are nice
Tonya Lou

SOOOOO There is TONS of birthdays this month!! BEJEZZES! Yeah too bad I am not 21 or I could go out and party too. What happened to a good old fastion house party. *sigh* SO i have finally made some cosplay progress I finished altering my ashe shirt and have started molding the pendants! YAY! My suerger is back from the shop so I can finally start on some major sewing projects. YAY! I'm still confused on what I want to start on first and which costumes are actully going to be finished this year.

School has been amazing I am taking all computer classes all very creative. It's good to see whats out there and experince other programs other than photoshop and also learn more. I LOST MY FUCKING CAMERA!! I suppose it is somewhere in Toms house but i'm lost without it! I love my camera! makes me alittle sad.
Well my Laundrys done and I have ton's more stuff to clean so

Love Always
Tonya Lou

I havent posted to LJ in say ohhhhh.... a couple months! Everythings been kinda crazy and yet calm at the same time. I'm out of school Finally! But I still cant wait till next semester. I am fianlly going to give my full attention to school this year and hopefully I will be makeing it out with my degree in a year. I'm haveing a bit of a crisis right now, my surger is broken and I actually may be in need of a new one *cries*. But if anyone knows of a good serger repair place PLEASE let me know ASAP! I have lots of projects planned for this year.

Christmas is here already and i'm kinda in shock of how fast it has snuck up on me. To be honest I kinda dislike christmas because I never have enough money to get anyone anything good, Present wise. *sighs* I will think of something! OH and my best freind is PREGNAT!! sweet ,huh? I love her and I know she will make a great mommy! and Justin will make a fantastic Father!

Much love to all
Tonya Lou

There is recent excitment for me in my world of cosplay so I decied it would be reasonable to post a blog. This past week I discovered that I am on comcast Ondemand. It is just me answering some questions but if you would like to see a very nervous me on TV all you have to do is go to anime selects- Cosplay confesstions- RedXIII. I do beleive that my Boyfriend is on there too but since I have Satillite at my house and we were at a friends house at the time of discovery we didnt get to find out for sure. SOOOO if you see a cloud on there it would be awsome if someone let me know.
I am also makeing some more impovements to my ashe costume because Square Enix is haveing a official final fantasy XII contest soo Wish me luck! I will be entering.
Lastly I am almost finished with my brothers Sora costume but out of stupidity It will not be perfect by the time of it's debut. Yeah I messed up a little on the shorts but It should still be pretty good. I just need to finish all the little details then I'll post pics as soon as I can!!
I am very excited about NDK comeing up here in a couple weeks but freakin stressed out about all the work I still need to do!
AHHHH
Much love
Tonya Lou

Awww it's soooo exciteing one of Tom's sisters went into labor today!! YAY for babies and new life! I'm exctied for him and he's sister being a new mom and all and tom getting his third neice. This just makes me wish for a baby in my family. I mean the youngest person to come around in along time is my brother and he's 13 already!! Jeeze i cant beleive that he's in middle school already.
Yesterdy I altered my apperance, I dyed my hair it looks awsome Red on top and black on the bottom. It turned out very well. If only I could afford new clothes now.
My 20th b-day is comeing up on thursday and I really havent decied if I want to celabrate it or not. I know Tom is planning something for me and him...(dont ask what I dont know) but I was trying to decied if I wanna have a little get together it could be fun to get everyone together again since that doesnt seem to happen very often anymore. Plus my mother has been dying to meet some of my other friends. Well..i'll contimplate that some more and come to a final decition but for now i'm outta here
Much love
Tonya Lou

Anyone up for water world? I havent been there in almost 2 years now and this saterday Tom, Melinda, Justin and a few other people are gonna be going. Some people at work may even show up. I guess it's kinda one of thoose final "hoo haa" things before school starts.It's gonna be soooooooooooo much fun!! I love Melinda she is so much fun and I love working with her! It makes time pass by quickly when we end up working together. In cosplay news. I finished my brothers Sora jacket except for the flames painted on the sleeves. It looks good so far but I still need to buy some things for the pants. I'll post pictures when I can. Well sleepytime now!!
Goodnight
Tonya Lou